This goes out to all those who are suffering: The last years have been a hell of a ride - between the paralysis in my arm to developing RSD (Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy) and countless other things, it has been a challenge to find myself again. The reality of pain is that it takes over every bit of our being, clouding our judgement and world view… but does it have to?
We don’t have to lose ourselves under the weight of the world. We can break free. It’s not easy but suffering creates value and without it we cannot appreciate the beauty and humor surrounding us. The “negative” circumstances in my life should’ve broken me down, at least that’s what society led me to believe. “Cripples” can’t be happy. How could I find peace through excruciating pain?
Well, during #RSD flare ups there isn’t much that I can do but breath (even that is difficult) but that’s where I started. If I couldn’t do anything but breath, I was at least going to try to do that right! I began to meditate and the world opened up to me, my tension lessened. It became easier to tame this monster. With time, meditation helped me see that I was far more than a “useless cripple” (that’s what I felt like for far too long). I could live a fulfilling life despite what this awful disease was doing to me. I started trying new things that were within my limitations. Hands & feet useless? I’d write via audio recording and beatbox because why not?
We don’t have to lose ourselves in our pain. Actually, our pain helps us find ourselves. We are hard wired to survive. We can, and will, pull ourselves out of the rumble, out of the darkness, if it gets bad enough. Think of those heroic stories of hikers who were trapped and lost in the wilderness, with little to hope for, yet they find a way to survive. That’s not just their story. That is yours as well. You are capable of more than you can even conceive at this moment. You have to fight to find and save yourself. Nobody else will do it for you. Nobody else will make you breath through the pain and look for the positive. Take a few deep breaths and tell yourself “I AM STRONG”. You are strong, but you may not have tapped into it yet. You got this!✌️